Historians will write pages over pages when they will write on era beginning from 2020. It’s the dark time when mobile world got a halt, a break or change maybe.
A virus named covid 19 hit the earth and we were exposed to the real meaning of word “QUARANTINE”. The earth faced lockdown. First time things were this much uncertain in my whole lifetime. Everyone from peasant to prince, and beggar to businessman got restricted to their homes. In this scenario, when people got hit by sudden changes, they suffered psycho emotional changes also. I think, sufferings might differ from person to person but nature of sufferings is almost same. I observed people striving in this pandemic with mental anguish, nervous strain and psychological disconsolateness along with physical frailness. Personally, it has not been easy for me to avoid this conscious depression because of sudden major changes in my organized routine. Getting far distant from my friends, relatives, was painstaking for me. Listening news that only carries the statistical analysis of deaths and percentages of affected people in different countries and fear of getting infected by virus whose vaccine was not discovered has been a real trauma for me.
Honestly it can’t be avoided. How can you avoid people? Your loved ones? Rather I should say till how long can you avoid your social needs???? “MAN IS A SOCIAL ANIMAL “we are designed in a pattern to become social by our ALLAH Almighty. Is there any possibility to bypass that design?? Of course not. I still remember the vivid windy day of march when I was in my college cheering with my friends and discussing physics with my lecturer, I never knew that could be the last day in my college. But, I guess that is life actually, things happen when you least expect them …afterwards, I being an extrovert suffered a lot in lockdown but I am glad to admit that I discovered many new skills and ideas as well. I never know myself as a poetess. And my talent of cooking, painting and writing prose were also hidden. Well, I guess the best part of our inner comes out when life hits hard.
I utilized my time in a positive way. I tried new indoor activities but it was not an instant change. Things took time to settle down. Months immediately after the lockdown were real challenge for me and being an extrovert, I felt like a bird who has been caged. I started feeling numb, spending most of the time sleeping or watching series. My expressive self, who was fond of interacting with different people warmly, fell a prey to loneliness and I just lost my exuberant nature. But things settle down after teaching many lessons during this hard time.
The best thing I learned in this time period is how to tackle with my own self, how to manage my stubborn self and how important breaks are in one’s life I learned to let things go. I realized that I should not allow ordinary matters to bother my peace. I realized that things take time to settle but consistency and hope should never be lost. After major breakdown in my life I realized that “if your path hell, walk as you demands you to walk through the own the path”.
My management skills have been improved. I am less stubborn and more accepting now. I learned this from my university life .. The virtual mode of communication is again distress for my social self but this time things cannot hit my strengths. I adjusted myself in new system of education with maturity and flexibility and I would say that it is the best way to manage new revolutionized mode of education. This adventure having lots of ups and downs is still worth writing because it has been the time of my life when I was exposed to new experiences and unbearable pressures from every side but believing that Allah turns coal into diamond under great pressure and heat, I grew up from self-centered Areeba to mature, steadfast, and more farsighted girl. And I am glad to write this to keep record of my victory over darks of inevitable depression. A huge number of people are still dealing with depression and panic attacks because of covid 19 and I think it is disrespectful if we take it lightly. “TINY TWEAKS CAN LEAD TO BIG CHANGES”. Help them to come out of this phase. May Allah bless every single soul … JAZAKALLAH KHAIR…
Sincerely,
Areeba
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